It's 4 in the morning...Just came back from Yumcha at Aman Suria with Edwin becuz he said he's hungry.. I have only 4 hours to sleep wei.. because tomorrow have to get up earlier for breakfast with Edwin (yes, him again..) and Chea Teing and Chea Hwey.. then will be going to KL Sentrel..
Reach home, bath...half way through in the bathroom..suddenly just thought of mum. Thinking back, wow..time really flies nowadays, it has been erm...coming 3 months, since she say goodbye to all of us.
Seriously, it feels weird to live my life without her. There's no one to talk with, no one to share secret with, no one yielding at you asking you to wash your clothes, wash your shoes, spend wisely, no one is worrying of you when you're out with fren late at night.....
At the age of 19 only i truely understand the meaning of responsibility. And only at the age of 19 i have to learn to take up responsibilities and to carry them out with care and wisdom..which is kinda tough at times.
At 19, i have to learn to buy my own bra and i have to take note of my younger sister's growing progress. Sometimes i think it's good that i started out earlier but sometimes i felt i was truly truly pampered, that i only started to understand things at 19....
Thank God everything began to settle down. And daddy also started to adapt to changes and started to live his life a little happier eventhough i know within him is still bittering. But one thing i noticed, he got way too old compared to months before..
Woah...it's 5am now. It's damn hard to blog with your tears flowing down your cheecks man.. well dont worry pal.. i'm alright!! Really!!! such short post need about an hour..lol. Guess i better get some sleep or else tomorrow i will be late for breakfast.. And i need to wake His Majesty Edwin Khoo the Sleeping King.....
**i think this is my saddest post ever haha....
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